What A Trip
Most of the time, I really don’t give an fuck what people think/do. People’s rude and negative behavior really doesn’t bother me because that’s just how they are and more than likely, they’re not purposefully trying to be mean. Every so often though, I like to reassess situations and usually end up angry, haha. (This is why I need to go back to not caring!) I came to LA for a mini vacation and to see a show. I was supposed to stay with a friend from college, but ended only staying one night. It was SO COMPLICATED! Of course there’s three sides of every story, but my understanding and everyone I explained it to’s understanding was that, I really wasn’t wanted and my friend’s just an unorganized jerk. After an emotional (I really tried not to be and I hate it when I am) discussion he said he wasn’t trying to be mean… but still. Even if the intent wasn’t there, that’s how I felt and I’m afraid it just gonna happen again. I know he’s not doing it on purpose. I’ll be okay.
And oh my goodness, that was not the only thing that happened! ::sigh:: I like to compare all my relationships to an eternal road trip. And this particular one made and unscheduled gas stop as it continues around the roundabout. I really need to break out the map and figure out where we’re going because I’m getting dizzy.
Fitting
Because I’m so melodramatic, I’m posting this song.
Some people make me SO MAD! And it hurts when it goes from one person to two and then three shady people. I’m much better off by myself. Which is quite sad. Wait no, I’m much better off with the close friends that I do have instead of trying to make new ones. Or maybe I just don’t need any male friends? That really seems to be the underlying factor.
RIP
Michael Jackson died today. I’m watching all his music videos and being reminded of how much I liked him. Every song reminds me of good times. All the music is putting a smile on my face, how did I forget all these songs? I remember when my father bought History when it came out at midnight. And I remember being amazed at the “Black Or White” music video. And thinking “Remember The Time” music video was so cool! I had to explain to my younger cousin who “they” and “us” are in “They Don’t Care About Us.” What is so amazing to me is that so many people around the WORLD love Michael Jackson. He will be missed.
And what made it even sadder was that Farrah Fawcett died today as well. I don’t know why I was so upset about that. I think because she was a mother and had cancer and never got married (even though she wanted to.) She seemed like such a nice person and it’s so sad that she had to die from cancer. That’s never a good thing.
Today is a sad, sad day.
Expanding Your Horizons
I’m worried about getting a job at Outside Lands. I haven’t heard back from Another Planet, so I contacted some other people that work with the festival. I’ll follow up with everyone today. Even if I do get a job, I’m not even sure I’ll be able to get that Friday off. At first, I thought we were not going to have any shows because (duh) everyone’s performing at Outside Lands, but now we might have a non musical show… I hope we don’t, haha. I really want to go to work the festival and just do more musical stuff besides my 9-5 yob in general. I need to make some good contacts so I can eventually salgo este trabajo.
I’ll just pray that everything works out.
The Suite Life
I am really stressing out and all would be fine if I just had some time to myself to relax. I think I’ll do that this weekend. Just saying it makes me feel better.
Unbeweavable!
I think I want a weave. So many variables go into this decision. I feel like getting a weave is “doing to much” and I should leave my hair a natural as possible. I shouldn’t conform to society’s idea of what beauty is and if my hair won’t get that long or straight on it’s own, I should just accept what I have. Plus, I don’t want all the questions from strangers…
But… getting a weave would be so convenient! I’d do it when I go to Chicago so I won’t have to deal with the heat and getting water poured on me (it happened at last year’s Lollapalooza) Every single time I go, my hair ends up getting effed up and there’s nothing I can do about it. Braids were cool, but I’d like to try something new. I just hope it looks real.
And the whole idea of having someone else ’s hair on my head is really trippy. You know when people get transplants, occasionally they’ll develop traits similar to whoever’s organ they received? What if that happens with me and the hair?
Ivy PR
I’ve been doing a lot of work getting ready to do publicity for a musician. I’m writing and editing and writing and editing his bio now, so I’ll already be ready when he’s ready (haha.) I hope this actually happens because you know, artists can be fickle people… My aura might not be the right color for him or he’ll just forget, who knows? If it doesn’t work out with him, I guess, I’ll have to be proactive and find another client!
MacBook Pro
I got a new computer! So excited. It has a webcam attached (welcome to 1997), but I have no one to talk to! I’m on iChat right now, and no one has that little green camera next to their name. 
Since I have photobooth, I can take pictures of myself at random. Por ejemplo:
Now, I won’t waste time taking pics at work: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2195905&id=3402167
