4th of you lie
I’m not really into Independence Day. Haven’t been for quite some time, mainly because black people weren’t free on July 4th. I have grudgingly gone with my parents to the fireworks display, but not after making a statement.
But today I did celebrate it. I had some friends over and we barbecued and watched the fireworks all over the bay (we had a good view of everything.) It was a good amount of people since I thought only 3 were coming. We had SO MUCH FOOD! We (my mom, uncle, sister and I) were cooking since 6 and stopped around 10ish. I hope I put everything away…
What was so funny was when my sister and a friend had some bottle rockets in their hands that they thought were sparklers, hahahahahaha. Sparks flew like all on their arms, there was this loud whistling noise and the bottle rockets shot off into the sky all while they were holding it. My sister and friend screamed and everyone ran from them laughing. It was pretty funny. It was nice to hang out with my friends again. The majority I’ve known for 10+ years (!)
What A Trip
Most of the time, I really don’t give an fuck what people think/do. People’s rude and negative behavior really doesn’t bother me because that’s just how they are and more than likely, they’re not purposefully trying to be mean. Every so often though, I like to reassess situations and usually end up angry, haha. (This is why I need to go back to not caring!) I came to LA for a mini vacation and to see a show. I was supposed to stay with a friend from college, but ended only staying one night. It was SO COMPLICATED! Of course there’s three sides of every story, but my understanding and everyone I explained it to’s understanding was that, I really wasn’t wanted and my friend’s just an unorganized jerk. After an emotional (I really tried not to be and I hate it when I am) discussion he said he wasn’t trying to be mean… but still. Even if the intent wasn’t there, that’s how I felt and I’m afraid it just gonna happen again. I know he’s not doing it on purpose. I’ll be okay.
And oh my goodness, that was not the only thing that happened! ::sigh:: I like to compare all my relationships to an eternal road trip. And this particular one made and unscheduled gas stop as it continues around the roundabout. I really need to break out the map and figure out where we’re going because I’m getting dizzy.
on my way
Like I said before, I told one of my friend’s I’d do PR for his next album. Easier said than done! So far, I created my website, and started working on some press releases. The bio is going to be the hardest part. I’m going by memory, but eventually, I’m going to have to do an interview to fill in the holes. My main job has got me pretty busy, so I’m gonna give myself a month to write the bio. Hopefully, I can finish it sooner.
In like two months, I’m going to start contacting writers. I’m so glad my other friend made a business card for me. It’s nice to have friends who care enough to help. I haven’t hung out with him in forever [and I miss him?] Another friend is editing all my work for me.
So long, friend
I’m clearing my myspace inbox and I’m feeling kinda sad. I guess because as I “check all” and delete, I’m looking at all these people that I don’t talk to anymore. Why not?
Amerigo Vespucci
My friend has a new place, so I bought him a world map. It’s somewhat of a random gift, but I could’ve used one many a time. I was having a discussion [argument] about that Josh Harnett movie, “30 Days of Night” trying to figure out whether there could be a sequel in Russia or Greenland. And last week, my sister and I are were trying to remember where Tahiti was. I totally thought it was in the Indian Ocean…
I was going to buy him one a long time ago, but I can’t remember if I actually did. I’d hate to give a double present. I’d look like an idiot.
just thinking
Sometimes I feel like I’m just coasting through life and that’s a terrible thing to do. I just can’t seem to make any important decisions. I’m not sure what’s stopping me [fear of something, mais que?] I need to set goals/timelines for myself, but… I feel if I set my mind on one thing, I’ll be missing out on something else. For instance, I have no idea what type of career I want. Okay, I want to stay in the music industry, but that’s pretty open. Hmm…
I want to work with live music. (But music supervision combines my love for music and TV…) A tour manager would be an awesome job, but how the hell am I supposed to do that? Am I really just gonna get a random baby band, hop in a van and start booking gigs? Ha! I don’t take risks like that; I have bills I need to pay!
So I’m supposed to work for a venue then? That’s what I’m going now, but I can’t do this forever. It doesn’t pay me enough (maybe that’ll change ::quick prayer:: ) I don’t [really] like the music that comes here, but maybe I’m asking for too much. I think I am.
Or maybe I could be an agent. Do they wear suits to work everyday?
Whatever I end up doing, I need to figure it out by the end of the month. I’m not saying I’m going to quit my job then, I’ll just have a concrete idea of what I want to do with my life and how I’m going to achieve that.
Oh, and why hasn’t my friend emailed me back yet? I told myself I wasn’t going to talk to people about my personal life anymore, but I did and again I get no response (and it’s a different person this time too!) ::sigh:: I’ll never learn. I need to write a sticky note that says “Keep it to yourself!”
you could’ve sent an ecard
I’m a little confused. Why would someone say, “oh your birthday’s coming up? Remind me to send you something.” I remind him, and the day after my birthday he’s all like, “was I supposed to send you something?” Bitch, you’re the one who brought it up in the first place! I was thinking, “oh he’s finally going to be nice to me for once and take some time and actually pick something out for me. I’m delusional for even thinking he’d be a friend like that. Remind me again why I still talk to him?
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(I’m still waiting for an answer.)
